Apr 192020
 

I have been a stay at home mom who is also on disability for anxiety, depression and PTSD for years. When social isolating began I truly was shocked by how many people seemed to not know how to be content with themselves, their thoughts, their homes. It made me sad that people are being paid to work from home and are in panic mode unsure how to manage their home, children and work.

My mother says this is like things were when I was a baby 35 years ago. Most moms didn’t work, and socializing was largely done by phone. While this sudden force to change is dramatic and even traumatic, it goes to our roots, if not our own than our grandparents or great grandparents. I find myself thinking outside of our typical box full of conveniences more often now and ask what would Grandma have done? This brings peace to me and reminds me that serving my home, my children, and myself is what I should be doing. In these moments of slowed down chaos, we have an opportunity to bond, with ourselves.


Many people live in areas like myself, where the weather isn’t great for getting outside yet. Or, worse, they live in a large metropolitan area that wants everyone to stay inside, or perhaps they chose a small highrise when looking for a place to call home and don’t even have an outdoor space or balcony. These people likely feel confined, trapped or even imprisoned during this uncertain time in our world.

We must, however, look at the bright side. 35 years ago there were a dozen channels on tv if you were lucky to even get cable. There were no internet or streaming services to give us shows to watch, news to watch and read, movies at the click of a button, or freshly released music to fill our spaces. While the world being at a standstill right now causes worry about bills piling up and a mountain of debt we didn’t expect, remember, you are not alone, we are in this together, not just as a community, but as a world.

Now is the time to start to draw or paint again. Read books and use that Kindle Unlimited membership to the max. It is time to write and reflect. We can practice recipes we haven’t had time to try while living the rat race. We can enjoy our pets, tidy and purge our homes of the things that just take up visual whitespace and distract us.

We finally have time to sit, meditate and access our souls. Maybe this means picking up your Bible and truly studying the Word, or maybe it means picking up a pen and placing your joys and worries on paper, out of your head in a tangible place. Maybe, it means playing video or board games with your family or catching up on shows you have missed over the seasons that you used to get excited for.

Use the technology we are blessed to have that wasn’t in existence even 20 years ago. Hit the video call button on your phone or laptop and have a family dinner each Sunday, the way we did when we were young. Perhaps you would like to pray with your family who is also in isolation each morning, or evening before bed. There are apps for Netflix Parties that allow anyone with the link (and Netflix) to join in and simultaneously watch the same show or movie together with a chatbox on the side.

We are blessed to have these technologies at our fingertips the way our mothers and grandmothers did not. Please, don’t forget that self-care can be a glass of wine and a book, or a hot bath with some Epsom salts. When is the last time you took a bubble bath or used all of the hot water in a mid-day shower?

Set a tone that helps you feel encouraged to clean, declutter, tidy up and get your work done if you are lucky enough to work from home right now, and then, set the tone for time with yourself. Candles or essential oils, a favourite show or picking up a paintbrush or pencil and being creative. Even if you want to live in your pyjamas all day (I do!) be sure to change from your day loungewear into your evening loungewear and encourage your mind to remember a routine that gives you time for being productive and a time for relaxation.

It is far too easy to allow the unknowns to take over our minds right now. Setting out to-do lists and around the house schedules is a great way to help keep our minds, bodies and souls occupied. I see many people forgetting what day of the week it is. Pencilling in our chores, our own needs and things we have done or are enjoying helps to block out each day and set goals for the next.

Whether you live in a studio apartment or a sprawling estate there are likely things you have to do or would like to do better. Give your space love and thank it for keeping you and your loved ones safe during this time. Remember, if you run out of ideas, you can always search for things to do online and get those creative juices flowing once again.

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Dec 222018
 

I’ve compiled my top favourite true crime YouTubers that I have enjoyed this past year! Only 8 made the cut as many others are only focused on one case and I think bringing light to as many cases as possible is important! I am subscribed to nearly 100 different channels from family vloggers, to cleaning, makeup and yes, of course, more crime! I may decide to list some of those other channels another day!

Eleanor Neale

Eleanor Neale has an amazing UK accent and most of her videos are true crime narrations. Her accent combined with the stories she tells, and the respect she gives, have made her one of my favourites in 2018!

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Gabulosis

Gabulosis has a series on vintage crimes, especially hollywood starlet types called “Vintage and Vanished”. She always has a new hair color and vlogged for the first time during her Halloween video’s this year! She talks about many unknown to me cases and I love it! Like many others, she also puts in an off-topic video or a different style video once in awhile to lighten the mood and show another side of herself! She does an amazing job and I have no clue why she wasn’t recommended to me sooner!

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Amber Loves Mystery TRUE CRIME

Amber has fairly long videos and really puts a lot of love into every case she covers! She also has posted a couple of vlogs and unboxing videos of products that people who are interested in creepy things would enjoy! She has talked about having some struggles with her health and still manages to upload regularly! She caught my eye with her beautiful backgrounds and soothing voice! I love the variety on her channel!

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Cayleigh Elise

Cayleigh does an amazing job with her series of covered John and Jane Does called “Nameless”, her series “Dark Matters” and tons of other dark topics, including fringe episodes and Subsriber Storytime! If I had one complaint, it would be that she has a lot of Patreon only things, and I can’t afford to join in, but I absolutely respect her for fnding a way to keep the channel up and running and sharing these important messages!

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Georgia Marie

Georgia is another young woman with an amazing accent! She covers a lot of cases from the UK and this makes her videos seem quite new to me as they are often cases that i am not familiar with. However, she also has done the classics, including Jack the Ripper. She uploads every Wednesday for a “Midweek Mystery” and throws in a beauty product or vlog here and there to help lighten the mood and allow her viewers to see other aspects of her life!

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LordanARTS

John Lordan has been someone I’ve been following for several years! He is the ONLY YouTuber I have ever bought merch from! He has several different series on his channel, Brain Scratch -which was birthed by the Elisa Lam case, Case Cracked, where he gives us a story where the case is solved. Searchlight, which highlights missing people; and once in awhile he will toss in a more fringe episode to lighten the mood and peak your interest by something not so dark! He used to do a weekly documentary or movie review as well, but has changed his schedule up and this is no longer in his regular weekly rotation, but he does feature a documentary or movie here and there! John, is one of the only YouTubers I have ever found who has the families of the victims reach out to him and be willing to discuss the cases, adding in an even more personal touch and call to action!

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Shauna Rae

Shauna Rae is another true crime YouTuber who enjoys pulling up lesser-known cases. Her channel is building really nicely and I am excited for her! I don’t know if I have ever even left a comment (I will have to!!) but her information is clearly well researched and she isn’t afraid to look at her notes to make sure she is getting it right! Recently her uploads did slow down as she explained some health issues in a recent video, but I am excited that she is back! Shauna Rae also tosses in some skincare products and q&a’s to lighten the mood, but it is tastefully done and doesn’t take away from the messages of the victims she is representing!

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These are literally in no order other than the way they appeared in my subscription list! I hope you check them out and find someone new to enjoy! If you have are in love with somone, or have your own channel, leave me a comment and I will check them out!

EDIT
I realize there are now only 7 listed. One was removed due to spreading rumours about other YouTubers and tearing people down. I am not about that game and won’t be supporting someone who is! I hope you enjoy my top 7!!

Dec 302016
 

I stare at the cursor flashing black on white and the words blowing around in my head don’t want to flow to my tongue, or to the fingers that place them on the screen. I’ve never written while happy. I have never been happy, not for more than a fleeting moment or two anyway.

This is new territory for me and at every corner fear creeps in and I wonder how long happiness can last. I doubt myself and wonder if I am good enough. Scripture tells me I am plenty good. That when God was finished waving His finger creating the world, He looked down and saw that it was very good. I know this includes me, and you and everyone yet to come.

We are all a part of the original plan, His plan!

How do I shake those relationship fears though? How do I be safely me while for the first time in my life I am loving on someone who isn’t my child? How do I not mess things up?

The answer seems to be simple, and yet it’s one that I often fall away from during the good times and like so many, hold tight to during the hard times only; looking to Christ.

The Truth is:

If I seek the Lord, he hears me, and he will deliver me from ALL my fears! ~Psalm 34:4~

And,

I should not be anxious about anything, and in everything through prayer and petition and with a heart of thanksgiving, I must present my requests to God and the PEACE of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus ~Philippians 4:6-7~


And, while the outside looks like it’s been attacked by Elsa having a tantrum my heart knows only the warmth of love and beats excitedly in happiness and joy and I know that my verse for 2016 – All things are possible with God – has proven to be true and I will embrace each moment as they come.

I will love deeply and fully as Jesus has ordered me to do.

I will pray hard and often about the direction my life is taking and I will live in the hope of the Lord because I have come to realize that when I try and live without hope, I am living in fear and anxiety and that is not living at all.

“Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God”
~Psalm 42:5~

“So we say with confidence, ‘The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?'”
~Hebrews 13:6~

 

 


 

Nov 232016
 

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Sep 272016
 

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Diller Quaile has a very hefty index which the website lists the “Contents: Ah, Mon Beau Chateau · All the Birds (German) · Autumn Song · Baa Baa Black Sheep · Berceuse · Bohemian Song · Bring a Torch, Jeannette, Isabella · Cock-A-Doodle-Doo · Cradle Song · Dutch Tune · Early One Morning · English Folk Song · French Jig · Frere Jacques (Are You Sleeping?) · Hippity Hop · Hop, Hop, Hop! · Hot Cross Buns · Hunting Song · Hush, Little Baby · In Springtime · Irish Air · Jack Be Nimble · Jack Sprat · The Keys of Canterbury (English) · Lament (Moravian Folk) · Lavender’s Blue · Little Bo-Peep · Little Jack Horner · Lullaby · Morning Song (French Folk) · My Country, ‘Tis of Thee (America) · Nachtigall (Nightingale) · The Old Chateau (French Folk) · Pierrot · Pussy Cat · Raindrops · Ride a Cock-Horse · Russian Folk Tune · Russian Song · The Shepherdess · Sing a Song of Sixpence · Slumber Song · Song of the Sword (Moravian) · Spanish Folk Song · Star of the Sea (French Folk) · Sur Le Pont D’avignon · Suzy, Little Suzy (Humperdinck) · Vicar of Bray · Waltz.”

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Jul 012016
 

I wore my heart on my sleeve, exposed and fully bare. No one to protect the flooded arteries from the scars that travelled fast and hard and way too near. As I speak in lyrics and sing the song that’s on my heart the child asks if I have a song for everything and I pause. I look into her beautiful deep blue eyes that carry a pain of their own, and I say “unsung lyrics are simply a journey yet to be experienced.” And the response was “that’s deep.”

You have no idea how deep though young one, while you are worrying about snap stories and who will be on the bus next year I am thinking long and hard about whether or not I am mothering you the way you need. I keep bleeding love for my children because God shed blood for those of us that are His.

And you think love is to pray
But I’m sorry, I don’t pray that way
~Tainted Love~

 

I don’t need Queen to sing “We are the Champions” in order to know that our Earthly battle has already been won. I don’t need John Newton’s lyrics to Amazing Grace to know that His grace is more than sufficiently amazing, or Hillsong to tell me that “Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now.”



And yet the words of Manson singing about drugs and feeling like a nobody and wanting to be a somebody gives me a reason and a need for the music that also represents the good and I have physically experienced a plethora of evil/bad, it is somehow reassuring to hear the lyrics that express that pain and expose my unknown broken in order that I can mend the shattered pieces with a giant tube of super glue and listen to the songs that bandage my heart to stop the sting and leave me resting in the only One who completely understands and has promised to heal.

I drop to my knees and I beg as I kneel “Heaven save me, I am down to one last breath” and as Creed plays in my prayer I already know that my finale belongs to the one who gave me a beginning -God.

Jun 042016
 

This week has been a whirlwind with a child travelling 18 hours from home and tracking flights and drop offs and pick ups and my mom collapsing in pain and being in the hospital up until a few hours ago with surgery on the horizon. I have missed my haven- home- my bed. I have missed sleep and the way my blankets comfort me and keep me comfortable, I missed food and water and I missed having my mom home.

I missed my time with God because there was no time between running around and going to the hospital to fit in my study -I tried but in the end not even the boy child got sent to school, it was just too much to deal with and the safety of my little cocoon felt so exposed as I sat in waiting wondering if surgery would happen or if release papers would come.

I crawled into my little haven last night at around 4:30am and was out the door to the hospital by 9:30am. The night before only left me with about 4 hours of stressed sleep as I entertained the boy child waiting to hear how my mom was, grandma, the woman who has helped me raise my children without complaint.

Sometimes our haven is a place, like bed, sometimes it is a person like my mom and it is ALWAYS God’s loving embrace.

They were glad when it grew calm,
    and he guided them to their desired haven.

~Psalm 107:30~

Tonight as I rest my head knowing my mom is safely upstairs in her bed and all my children are home and under one roof I can rest into my God, lay in my safe haven and know that all will be well. God has definitely been my guide this week and prevented me from burning out, helping me to triage all that life was throwing and still get us all safely home each night. God is good, always and always, God is good!

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