“Lead me Shepherd lead me
I’ll follow where you go
Lead me Shepherd lead me
I’m safe with you I know”
I can still remember singing that song at the ripe old age of 7 sitting on the floor in the school gym. Singing it at a memorial service for my best friend, he had been killed a few days before by his foster mother.
I will never forget our JK and SK teacher Mrs. George standing up in front of the school choking back tears and speaking words I can’t recall. I feel the emotion though. I was too young to experience such a profound loss and this song sung by all of us in unison in our innocent voices not really knowing yet the gravity of what death meant stuck with me.
“Though the night is deep and dark I will not be afraid
Though the night is deep and dark a promise he has made
Lead me shepherd lead me…”
I don’t think I really knew what God was until that moment. I went to Catholic school, was being raised in a Catholic family and even remember my baptism when I was three. When I heard that William had died I didn’t believe it and then this song. I saw in my mind my best friend walking in the dark only to find a bright light, and Jesus embrace.
I always thought that visual was an imagination to help me cope, but over the years I have experienced so many losses 36 to be precise and each time I get a different visual of the person and their meeting with God. I no longer question it because it brings me peace. Because GOD is the giver of Life and Grace and all that is Good.
Surely, He wouldn’t allow for our physical bodies to die if it was to be bad because God only created perfection.
So I find myself still singing this song and enjoying the visual of my small friend stepping into the Heavenly realm.
I am gifted with peace and unconditional love and all these years later, I know that he looks down on me and is an angel in my life, just like he was when he was still in the physical world.
I will follow where He leads.