Jun 282014

Five Minute FridayOnce again I have had to put ink to paper in order to write. This feeling of being lost is scary. I guess using a pen helps me to feel grounded; I am learning –or I thought I was.

Until today when I asked what I thought was an acceptable question and the answer or lack of took the wind from my lungs and crumpled me on to the bed.

My eyes are swollen and full of tears that keep on rolling down my face. I am realizing how dependant I am. How easily I hurt myself and immediately I am lost in the present because the past is so vibrant and real.

Clawing my way out from six feet under. Nails ripped off and fingers bloody-raw as I inch my way to the surface and struggle in the thick dark air.

But it’s there.

In those moments that I am completely lost that I feel most found by God. His nail driven hands wiping my tears and pushing aside my wet, matted hair, asking me to press my wounds into His so that I don’t feel more pain.

I may be lost but in Gods’ hands I matter and can’t be shamed.

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  8 Responses to “Lost –A Five Minute Friday Post”

  1. Man, this brough ttears to my eyes. What an amazing post. It is all so true. Thank you for sharing! found you from FMF http://bellesbazaar-heather.blogspot.com/2014/06/lost-5-minute-prompt.html

    • Thank you Heather! I didn’t mean to bring tears to your eyes but I guess that is what writing straight from soul-hole-emotion has that power! Thank you for your kind words!

  2. So raw and unfiltered-I love your honesty. I can just see the emotion playing out and the blessed relief when you turn to Him. When He takes the burden and brings the kind of relief that can only come from Him.

    • Raw Honesty is the only way that I can write. Everything else just feels like I am lying to myself, and to anyone who is reading. I want the real me, heart and soul, to be exposed through my words because of His Word!

  3. I’m praying for you as you struggle with your feelings of worth and lostness. You are precious and loved and always found by the one who loves you more than anyone else ever could.

    • Thank you for your prayers Anita! I have good days and bad days like anyone and by being raw-honest about things really does help me to feel closer to God and it also allows the people who I am close to to understand how I am feeling and how to support me best during that time, even if its prayer that I never know about, God always knows!

  4. I love your honesty, Marisa! I’m so glad you are using this space to be real. To be you. I love that about you!

    • Thank you Jennifer! Sometimes it’s very hard to write straight from the soul but in the end it is the most therapeutic for me and I pray that my experiences and emotions etc are able to help others feel like they aren’t alone in their own emotions. Bless you dear! Thanks for stopping in!

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