I started to write this on something else but the computer crashed and it didn’t auto save so I am going to go with that post wasn’t meant to be, it wasn’t welcome.
What makes you feel welcome when you enter into someone’s home? For me it isn’t a spotless house where I am uncertain if I should place my glass down somewhere or if I am even allowed to drink it outside of the kitchen sink.
The mess welcomes me. It feels like home. It feels like if I spill red wine (which I don’t drink) on their white rug they will tell me it is fine and hand me a roll of medium quality paper towel to wipe it up with. Not saying I am happy with a pigsty but to me a house with kids playing and Legos to step on and cookies transferred from a bag to the cookies jar is welcoming because I don’t feel like I have to compete or like I am not good enough.
The feeling of being welcome isn’t in the music playing or what’s on the TV or if they have set out some sort of spread. Feeling welcome is being in the presence of someone I love enough and who loves me enough to overlook the mess and see the beauty.
Tonight I began to read (again) You’re Already Amazing by Holley Gerth and a few pages into chapter one I found myself holding back the sobs crying, realizing that all that stuff that I am not, not organized, not pulled together, not a busy body etc isn’t an issue. God created me to be who I am and as long as I am striving to be His child and live according to His plan for me then really I have nothing to feel guilty for and that, that made me bawl my eyes out right there in the welcoming waters of the bathtub. I couldn’t even continue to read through chapter two because like the conditioner setting into my hair I needed her words to set into my soul so that His word could cradle my soul and guide me right.
It always amazes me how much being told I am “good enough” affects my emotions. Clearly this is something I need to work on. My word for the year is “FINISH” and my verse for the year is “All things are possible with God” –Mark 10:27
This year is the year to finish with the past, tighten up those loose ends and live in a state of welcoming more God into every aspect of my life. After all, the only place I want to be welcome is Heaven and according to God (who makes no mistakes) I am already amazing!
|You’re Already Amazing: Embracing Who You Are, Becoming All God Created You to BeBy Holley Gerth / RevellMany women are tired. Tired of trying to do more, be more, and have more. With busy work, home and church lives, it’s easy to feel like our spiritual growth gets short-changed. But what if God is already pleased, more than pleased–totally head over heels crazy about us and our hearts regardless of our mistakes and crunched schedules? If it’s true, that big load we’ve been carrying feels lighter already. In You’re Already Amazing, Holley Gerth wants readers to know that they can lay down the burden of their own, and others expectations, and embrace who they are as beloved, talented women. Rediscover the gifts you’ve been given and the life of purpose that God has for you.|