Last year I kept a gratitude journal and wore the bracelet marked “eucharisteo” on my wrist every single day as a reminder to be thankful for everything, big or small. My list grew and grew some more. By the end of the year I was at over 3000 gifts; that was three times more than I had planned to count.
This year I had set the goal again for 1000 gifts. It is doable, I know it is because I surpassed that goal last year. Yet somewhere along the road I fell into this crevice that stole me away from recognizing God’s gifts, the ones He lays out before me every single day. I was no longer seeing them and no longer counting what I was seeing.
I can’t really pinpoint what distracted me, it’s not like I suddenly didn’t have time to count the gifts, its that I didn’t have the motivation. I began to feel like I was in the world of the “lost” and had no clue if I would ever be “found”.
Then on June 22nd I read in my Jesus Calling devotional by Sarah Young:
“Thanking Me for trials will feel awkward and contrived at first. But if you persist, your thankful words, prayed in faith, will eventually make a difference in your heart. Thankfulness awakens you to My Presence, which overshadows all your problems.”
I wasn’t able to move past that day. I have read it every day since, and it is now July 9th. That page still bookmarked by the silver single faced ribbon page marker.
Then yesterday while I was working on my Hello Mornings study of James I read James 1:2-4
“Count it all joy, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.”
My mind knew, right then and there why I hadn’t been able to move past the June 22nd devotional. I am not counting gifts and I need to be. I need to be giving God the glory in all things, in all ways, every single day. I need to say “thank you” to the Giver and allow Him to resurrect me from that dark crevice that had swallowed me down.
So, last night I picked up my pen and wrote down a few things I was grateful for and then I was able to drift right off to sleep, no nightmares, no restlessness, just peace.
Today is a new day though and I am thankful for so much.
- Plexus products, helping me lose weight and be healthy for the first time in 13 years! I have a long way to go but I am grateful for every inch and every pound that has gone and for having my life returned to me by something that seems so simple!
- My kids being healthy. My daughter has a flu right now and yet she is healthy. I have been watching a little boy named Lucas on Facebook near death receive a liver transplant from a little girl named Olivia who didn’t make it. I am blessed to be dealing with the flu and hormones and bickering instead of watching my child hooked up to a dozen machines and praying for a hail Mary.
- Cool weather this week allowing us to sleep properly, save on power by being able to keep the air conditioning off, being able to spend time outside without feeling sick and so on… the cool weather brings in good times with the kids and options about what we eat and wear and how we sleep. I know the heat will come again and we will love that too, but this week has been great!
- Coconut oil- yeah I know this one is weird but I am so grateful for coconut oil! I use it to mix my own pain rubs, as a moisturizer, as a conditioner for my hair and even to clean my makeup brushes! Plus, I use it for cooking too! I am so blessed that God allowed another of His daughters to introduce me to a healthy and holistic product!