In the wake of a shock in my life I immediately want to fill my soul holes, to cover the pain I feel like I am using a figurative bandage to mend those wounds.
It’s insane because you can go to bed and wake up and your entire life can be changed and you always wonder why, you always wonder what God plans for these changes, or when.
For me grieving is something I don’t do well. I don’t rationalise or absorb the pain which leaves it all at the surface for quite a long time and it is hard on me. Hard on me to lose because of how long it takes for me to be stitched back together again.